Move on: It's painful but it's right!
2:55 AM
Most of the time, the right decision is the most painful one. Move on? Easy to say, but so hard to do. Most of the time, you’re asking yourself, WHY? Why does it hurts me so much even if I know, what I did was right?
Sometimes you wish to die, because every day you wake up without him, it feels like you’re breaking into pieces. You see him everywhere, walking alone in park makes you miss him more- Wishing he’s with your side, holding your hands and laughing together. Remembering the times you’re eating street foods alongside – simple and unique date you’ll surely wish to happen again.
You’re always wearing your best outfit to cheer him on his games letting him know that you’re his number 1 fan, number 1 supporter and number 1 love of his life. Like how he waits for four hours outside your office, lift up your self-esteem and confidence in every presentation you had at work.
You’re excited to go out at exactly 5pm because you know he’s waiting you outside the office. Excited to see him and let him hug and kiss you on your forehead while saying “I really miss you, it’s been a day since I haven’t seen you. :( ”. The way he smells your hair yet you’re not taking a bath, still he loves the scent of it.
While combing your hair, you remembered all crazy things he did to your hair till you got irritated, glared and scolded him. Then, he’ll be quiet and pout his lips like a child who’s making tampo. You know you can’t resist his pout so you’ll hug him and kiss him so many times in his cheeks. And help you comb your hair. – Then suddenly you find yourself crying, again!
Every time you close your eyes, you remember him, you remember how you fell in love with his smile, with his tantalizing eyes, even his angry face - the problems you overcome together. That times when you’re at worst and he’s there to bring you at best. And that time you’re fighting together for your love on each other.
It’s so painful to accept the fact that those things will never be happen again. If it is, it’s not on you, neither on him. It’s on someone.
Just think of this scenario, when you’re still little angel you have your favorite doll - your one and only doll. You allot time to take care of it, to be with it most of the time. Time passes by, it’s still your favorite - believing that nothing will such replace it. Until one day, you saw it broken, stitches are not strong anymore. You tried to fix it - getting things that you hope it will be fixed but unfortunately it can never be retrieved.
Just like love, you must embrace the fact that there’s no permanent in this world except change. Just let things go and let God guide you. Let your mind be at peace. Little by little collect the pieces of your broken heart.
You’ll get shocked that one day will come, the real you will be back. The smile in your face will shine again.
Now, say Goodbye!
Love,
- K.
Sometimes you wish to die, because every day you wake up without him, it feels like you’re breaking into pieces. You see him everywhere, walking alone in park makes you miss him more- Wishing he’s with your side, holding your hands and laughing together. Remembering the times you’re eating street foods alongside – simple and unique date you’ll surely wish to happen again.
You’re always wearing your best outfit to cheer him on his games letting him know that you’re his number 1 fan, number 1 supporter and number 1 love of his life. Like how he waits for four hours outside your office, lift up your self-esteem and confidence in every presentation you had at work.
You’re excited to go out at exactly 5pm because you know he’s waiting you outside the office. Excited to see him and let him hug and kiss you on your forehead while saying “I really miss you, it’s been a day since I haven’t seen you. :( ”. The way he smells your hair yet you’re not taking a bath, still he loves the scent of it.
While combing your hair, you remembered all crazy things he did to your hair till you got irritated, glared and scolded him. Then, he’ll be quiet and pout his lips like a child who’s making tampo. You know you can’t resist his pout so you’ll hug him and kiss him so many times in his cheeks. And help you comb your hair. – Then suddenly you find yourself crying, again!
Every time you close your eyes, you remember him, you remember how you fell in love with his smile, with his tantalizing eyes, even his angry face - the problems you overcome together. That times when you’re at worst and he’s there to bring you at best. And that time you’re fighting together for your love on each other.
It’s so painful to accept the fact that those things will never be happen again. If it is, it’s not on you, neither on him. It’s on someone.
Just think of this scenario, when you’re still little angel you have your favorite doll - your one and only doll. You allot time to take care of it, to be with it most of the time. Time passes by, it’s still your favorite - believing that nothing will such replace it. Until one day, you saw it broken, stitches are not strong anymore. You tried to fix it - getting things that you hope it will be fixed but unfortunately it can never be retrieved.
Just like love, you must embrace the fact that there’s no permanent in this world except change. Just let things go and let God guide you. Let your mind be at peace. Little by little collect the pieces of your broken heart.
You’ll get shocked that one day will come, the real you will be back. The smile in your face will shine again.
Now, say Goodbye!
Love,
- K.
7 comments
Love this. It really hits home. We all go through it. It's just nice to know you're not alone some times. But, it can be easier said than done. Great article
ReplyDeleteThank you so much tanja. :)
DeleteBeautiful prose! really admire your writing. True, there is no permanent except change in this world and those changes can lead us to many other beautiful opportunities. Loved this. Thanks and keep sharing more!!
ReplyDeleteYes Chandra! Thank you so much :)
DeleteThis is so emotional! It's very true that change is the only constant, and still really hard and painful to let go of things we love. <3 Thanks for being real about it.
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone! I went through a bad breakup years ago and felt like that most of the time. It's hard to realize at the time that it's not meant to be and there is someone out there much better for you. But there really is! :)
ReplyDeleteThis would have helped me if during some difficult moments back in the day! :) Relationships are complicated...and knowing ourselves is just as complex.
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